PREFACE: I have been away for a while.
Just like I always wanted. Away from my thoughts. Which is also why I am entirely unapologetic about not blogging since 2nd Jan. I did manage some stuff, but it was too miserable to complete and too incomplete to put up here.
However, this is something that I have been thinking of, while on my way home from work. EVERYDAY!
Please do not, forcrissake, expect the following to make sense. Although, on afterthought, I am going to make maximum sense I ever made.
So here it goes:
Dedicated to "you"
You there! Do you think I dont recognise you anymore?
I do. I always have.
I have seen through each mind game that you played. I followed each one of your moves. Pretty neat, I must say. Neat enough to allow me to enjoy, even though I realise it's just the same old mind game.
Each time...
Each and every time...
You come across as a random stranger. I tell you my story each time (now I always heard the chuckling, you didn't expect me not to). You'd enjoy a new version of the story. You have heard so many of them that you don't even bother to remember which one was it this time. For that matter, I don't even remember which one it was. I guess I have forgotten the truth by now. Was that your trick? Oh boy! How I wish it was!
Your intent, however, was to drown me in the shallow well of vulnerability.
You wished to plaster me with confidence, that was your way of straight-jacketing me.
You dragged me to the altar of well-being and from almost nowhere shackled me to it.
And lo! "Before I could even realise" I was taken.
You have had variouos faces. The meek, the poet, the wanderer, the goon, the altruist, the devoted, the random, the unknown, the famous.
Hah! But little do you realise, I see through you now, I saw through you everytime. I knew you shall destroy me bit by bit, pieces into pieces. But I let you.
I let you because I needed to learn.
Albeit, have I learnt still remains a mystery... and so does the question, do I want to learn.
You know everything of me. Yet there is a lot that I hide from you. There is a lot that you shall never know and you never should.
Today I still know and face it. It was you each time.
In a different face. In an altogether different way each time.
Someday, when I get the time from sorting the mess we've built around me, I shall introspect. And I shall realise that I have been foolish - loosing a contest willingly when I didn't stand a chance to win in the first place. I could've never won. If I ever came close to it anyways, you'd have backed out and re-entered the contest as an entirely different person. Hah! Caught you.
Funny thing, eh?
... The End.
See ya around!
Just like I always wanted. Away from my thoughts. Which is also why I am entirely unapologetic about not blogging since 2nd Jan. I did manage some stuff, but it was too miserable to complete and too incomplete to put up here.
However, this is something that I have been thinking of, while on my way home from work. EVERYDAY!
Please do not, forcrissake, expect the following to make sense. Although, on afterthought, I am going to make maximum sense I ever made.
So here it goes:
Dedicated to "you"
You there! Do you think I dont recognise you anymore?
I do. I always have.
I have seen through each mind game that you played. I followed each one of your moves. Pretty neat, I must say. Neat enough to allow me to enjoy, even though I realise it's just the same old mind game.
Each time...
Each and every time...
You come across as a random stranger. I tell you my story each time (now I always heard the chuckling, you didn't expect me not to). You'd enjoy a new version of the story. You have heard so many of them that you don't even bother to remember which one was it this time. For that matter, I don't even remember which one it was. I guess I have forgotten the truth by now. Was that your trick? Oh boy! How I wish it was!
Your intent, however, was to drown me in the shallow well of vulnerability.
You wished to plaster me with confidence, that was your way of straight-jacketing me.
You dragged me to the altar of well-being and from almost nowhere shackled me to it.
And lo! "Before I could even realise" I was taken.
You have had variouos faces. The meek, the poet, the wanderer, the goon, the altruist, the devoted, the random, the unknown, the famous.
Hah! But little do you realise, I see through you now, I saw through you everytime. I knew you shall destroy me bit by bit, pieces into pieces. But I let you.
I let you because I needed to learn.
Albeit, have I learnt still remains a mystery... and so does the question, do I want to learn.
You know everything of me. Yet there is a lot that I hide from you. There is a lot that you shall never know and you never should.
Today I still know and face it. It was you each time.
In a different face. In an altogether different way each time.
Someday, when I get the time from sorting the mess we've built around me, I shall introspect. And I shall realise that I have been foolish - loosing a contest willingly when I didn't stand a chance to win in the first place. I could've never won. If I ever came close to it anyways, you'd have backed out and re-entered the contest as an entirely different person. Hah! Caught you.
Funny thing, eh?
... The End.
See ya around!
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