Realisations..

Its been a while that i have been alive.. or so i'd like to believe.

After a lot of years of enduring this wholesome affair, i've had my realisations.

and a lot of them.

Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

and they say Shakespeare is difficult to understand. this is my belief. if this is difficult to believe/understand, nothing can be fathomed. i've realised in all this while that life is such a funny thing. even if you weren't born nobody would have realised you could have had existed. nothing, for that matter, matters.

look at the guy who invented the wheel.. who was he anyways! i feel the fellow who invented the other three wheels was the smarter ass.

i have realised that a lot of emotions- be it love, care, angst, for that matter even hunger- are only a development ordained by the phenomenal creatures who flock to form a society of consumer driven individuals. when you feel that you have begun to care about someone and that very someone cares for you too. LO! you might just be in for a surprise. what happens is actually a very realistically arranged concatenation of events which might not really mean that you would still be caring for the same people in the near future.

i have begun to realise that nothing essentially matters to the human mind. there are times that you believe that you'd never forget 'this'. but then, that 'this' becomes 'that something' soon enough. here. soon could be anything depending on the vitality of the event.

for that matter i even realised money, or even the scarcity of it, doesn't matter. today if you are poor, or not, either you are used to it already or you'd get used to it gradually. and also, whenever you get the money for primary sustainance or even plenty of it.. you'd feel that it was the most natural thing to happen. the mind is an amazing thing. it gets used to almost anything.

i've realised that whenever you need something, really really need something, the possibility of you getting it is inversely proportional to the amount of need/greed/desire you'd manage to gather for it.

i've also realised that if you really wish for something to work out, you'd be the one screwing it the most.

and i've realised that the most loving people are just the offsprings of the most wholesome unsatisfied bitches in town

and not forgetting the realisation that the ones who are good to everybody are good to nobody. not even themselves. which is why i am cruel, blunt as a spoon, crude and unapolegetic about being all this. :P

and then, there are a lot of things that i realised. but maybe some other time..

i am too drowsy now to delve into the details of anything else.

but then the most important lesson learnt was always the words that an imaginary someone once murmured to me in my sleep - whenever you screw up, just remember you weren't the only one to do so. life is just a very very painful ordeal and it won't last forever. make the mistakes that you always wanted to. you definitely won't get a second chance to make those mistakes and if you need a second chance, you don't deserve one.

to me nothing matters more than peace- of mind and otherwise.

well......... scared are we?

thats the way i prefer...

see ya around!